Golden Gate

by Edgar!

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about

The city can be the loneliest place, and it’s so easy to fall into yourself within it. Maybe it’s the fact that everyone is on their own, and they all have their own ambitions, but the city just feels so lonely. It’s so easy to feel like you want to jump off the golden gate because it’s all very sweet until you become stressed, and you feel like you’re the only one feeling that way. This emotional feeling lingers throughout the often-static and jarring melodies of Edgar’s sophomore album “Golden Gate”. The city can be draining, but once you realize you’re not always going to succeed, everything feels okay.
The follow-up to 2014's 'Science Fiction is Reality', an 8-piece story that is sometimes psychedelic and also a thorough ride through technology is something of the past. “Golden Gate” is a new entity, and yet it borrows some of its predecessor sounds to enhance the narrative. This comes to fruition through the radio static noise, collages of found-recordings, and what-not. Like said before however, this is entirely a new entity. Through distraught guitar riffs, electric drums, and jarring hooks: Edgar! Finds his hook. “I wanted to emphasize the vulnerability, and panic in my head through the chaos in the music. There are times where you can barely hear my voice, and with that I wanted to show how often I felt like no one could hear my screams.”
This sound is very much the sound Edgar! Has conceived over his short-time in the music industry, but it’s most definitely influenced by both the east coast experimental flare, and also the garage pop vibe going on in San Francisco. Throughout these moments within the city, Edgar! Usually finds himself alone, a feeling he confesses in the lead single ‘Rocky Road’ – a lo-fi garage pop anthem about feeling like all your friends are fake,
Elsewhere on the record are tracks like “Shooting Star”, a song that puts you within a dream-like trance, only to throw you out like a shooting star falling towards the concrete. As you can tell from the album title “Golden Gate” is a title given from the dark meaning behind the Golden Gate. Symbolically, it’s a place where many people have taken their life. Throughout the album it works as a calling, in “It’s Okay to Fail” he sings – “Why am I thinking about the golden gate at twilight; at rush hour when it’s at its peak”. The Golden Gate calls our singer to do something morbid which in the end he never ends up doing. “It’s a tragedy without the tragedy”.
The album was put together over a long period over San Fracnisco, and the road-trip back to Maryland. Before this album social connections through former-band “No, Coach!”, and his graphic design school year were the cause to a melodramatic album. “I was so stressed, I didn’t want to live anymore. I want to stick a cigarette in my eyes, I was so stressed, but once I learned that everyone fails, I didn’t want to jump off the golden gate. I was relieved”.
Failure is hard to observe, and even harder to take in. However, once someone can realize that it’s okay to fail, everything will get better. “Golden Gate” is a coming of age tale that expands over that philosophy.

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released July 16, 2016

Music by Michael Edgar
Produced by Michael Edgar
Performed by Michael Edgar
Photography by Michael Edgar, featuring models: Taylor Wega.
Type Used: "Helvetica Light Condescend" designed by Max Miedinger/Eduard Hoffmann. Also "Cooper Black" designed by Oswald Cooper

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Edgar! San Francisco, California

Yo, the name's "Edgar!". Idk what my music genre is, but i work in my bedroom, and i love wine :)

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Track Name: Roots
Roots that are
On the ground
I've only walked on
Dirt that is
on my boots
I've only brushed off
It's a fragment holding on (x)

I could never hold on
I could only hold on

The current you told me about
I would only swim along
If I were to swim away
I'd be a drowning boy

I am wiser. I am older
I don't need that current anymore

I had a dream that you were gone
I could speak for myself
Now my eyes are open wide
Why can't I speak for myself
You're the dirt that's on my boots
you're the fragment on my boots
You're the dirt that's holding on
You;re the dirt that's holding on
You're the dirt that's holding on
Track Name: Golden Gate
I've got a cig in the eye
It;s burning through the rain
You can drink that Cuervo, and you will stay the same

I am tired of watching sitcoms in my bed
Sometimes I just lie and wish I was dead

The Golden Gate it calls me
I just want to leap
The Golden Gate it calls me
I just can't breathe
I am tired of everything, I just want to breathe
But anxiety is coming, Golden Gate calls me

I am like the Salton Sea, surrounded by things
That have lost their value, and everything just stinks
Call me a dusty book that's lying on a shelf
That is what I relate to, the inanimate shelf

The Golden Gate it calls me
I just want to leap
The Golden Gate it calls me
I just can't breathe
I am tired of everything, I just want to breathe
But anxiety is coming, Golden Gate calls me

I've got a cig in my eye, it's burning in the rain
You will drink that Cuervo, and you will stay the same
You will stay the same
But anxiety is coming, you will stay the same
Track Name: I Can't Jump
You want me to act like mother
You want me to act like father
I am not my parents
But I will try to please you

You want me to do these things
I’m not sure if I can do them
But I am trying
Bloody trying
to serve you baby (x2)

I would jump off the golden gate
if iy wasn’t for your image in my head
you’re demanding one day i might
jump off the bloody edge

I am luing in the bed
Thinking about the hair on my head
and all the times I’ve pulled them out
Thinking about you baby

I can’t jump off the golden gate
because your image is in my head
you’re demanding
One day I might jump off.
Track Name: Shooting Star
I am on the hotel balcony
Thinking about my life
I Don’t know how to breethe
I just want to see somebody
In the city (x3_

Shooting Star
Will you guide me
Through the City
I just want to succeed (x3)

And if you can’t guide me
Please tell me you love me

I can’t leave someone
If you love the way I am
I am

Shooting Star
Will you guide me
Through the city
I just want to succeed
I just want to succeed

And now i am waiting
And I've been waiting for so long
Never reaching boundaries
I've been waiting for so long

I've been waiting for so long
Somehow my scars are here
and I am missing you

Shooting Star
Will you guide me
through the city
I just want to succeed
Track Name: Rocky Road
If I left the party
to walk on
A rocky road
in the country
Would you come to
comfort me

i am alone when it comes
to self thinking

-interlude-

do i stutter
when i'm talking loud
why are you
laughing at my speech
i worked hard
on preparing it
I know you
are a fake FRIEND

-interlude-

Yeah I know it's
hard to see someone
on a rocky road
It's hard, but you don't have to
Act like you wanna stick around
I could jump off this ledge right now

Leave me alone on this rocky road
Leave me alone on this rocky road
Rocky Road
Track Name: Drowning Boy
Hotel Balcony
Suddenly she could see
I was no longer on the concrete

I never believed
How the water could beat me
Water over taking my lungs

And now I can walk on water
But the smell of chlorine (still lingers)
Now I remember the screams (the screams, the screams, the screams)

Help my drowning boy
Help my drowning boy
Help my boy is drowning
Help my drowning boy
Help my drowning boy
Muffled sounds from underneath
Help my drowning boy

Flushing into my throat
A violent approach
I was an infant
I barely knew what water was

and though i can walk on water
I still remember the screams (the screams, the screams, the screams)

Help my drowning boy
Help my drowning boy
Help my boy is drowning
Help my drowning boy
Help my drowning boy
Muffled sounds from underneath
Help my drowning boy

I am a drowning boy, and I am not well
I am never well
I am a drowning boy
I am a drowning boy
I am a drowning boy
Track Name: Autumn, 2014
Autumn leaves are falling
I watch them swimming
Overtop a flooded lawn

They fall from a tree
That casts an entity
A shadow over the in-ground pool

I'm in the kitchen, doing nothing
I look at the window, doing nothing
always doing nothing

Autumn 2014
You're the hole in my timeline
Because I have good dreams
Because I have high hopes
and I will die if I don't succeed
It's August 2016

Autumn, 2014
All the leaves have fallen
I watch them swimming
Overtop a flooded lawn

They fell from a tree
That casts an entity
A shadow over the in-ground pool

I look in the window, doing nothing
I look at the kitchen, eating nothing
What am I going to do
Who am I going to be

(chorus)
Autumn, 2014
You’re the hole in my timeline
‘cuz I sleep with with good dreams
Because I have so much hope
But I will die If I don’t succeed
It's August, 2016

Autumn is so chilly
Everyone is stocking
On their very own career

I fell from a tree
Attacked from my Add
I lean over the golden city

I lean over the city, doing nothing
I am standing here, always doing nothing
always doing nothing

Autumn, 2014
You’re the hole in my timeline
‘cuz I sleep with with good dreams
Because I have so much hope
But I will die If I don’t succeed
it's august, 2016

Autumn leaves are falling
Bb, falling into the in-ground pool
But I've been a drowning boy
and the pool brings back scars (x2)
I never swim with the falling leaves
Autumn leaves are falling

Autumn, 2014
You’re the hole in my timeline
‘cuz I sleep with with good dreams
Because I have so much hope
But I will die If I don’t succeed
It's August, 2016
Track Name: Now I'm Bleeding Out
How do you fight with an open mind when you feel you’re falling flat
How do you lie with an open mind when you can’t decipher that
How do you fight when you feel like falling flat
How do you fight, how
How do you fight with an open mind when you feel like falling flat
How do you lie with an open mind, how do you lie, how do you lie
I had a dream with an open mind, and nothing came out of that
And nothing came out of that
I had my open sores, I had my fucking sores
I had my open sores
Now I’m bleeding out
Now I’m bleeding out
Now I’m bleeding out
Oh oh oh oh
Now I’m bleeding out, Now I’m bleeding out, Now I’m bleeding out, Ouuuutttttt
Track Name: It's Okay to Fail
If you have something to fall back on
If you don't find a need to get
Pissed off of the life you have lived
Everything will be fine

And if you have your doubts
You can call me anytime
and I will hold you, stroke your wet hair
I know you've been sweating dear

It's Okay to Fail

Time is everlasting
You don't want to waste it
on the fragments that have stopped you
From succeeding
Success is just a tale told that's told from your ancestors

And though autumn leaves are falling
They will grow back sometime someday
and you'll be ready
show them who's boss
It's just not your time

It's okay to fail

I say this now,
But by dawn I'll be thinking how
Someone was better than me
Oh God, why am I so petty
Will I succeed

Why am I thinking
of the Golden Gate at twilight
When rush hour is at it's peak
Oh God help me!

It's okay to fail
Track Name: I Never Dream
I accepted i can never tell you my dreams
Because all of my dreams are lost in your thoughts

it's okay 'cuz I never dream
to dream you have to sleep
I haven't slept in 4-5 days

If you looked in the Indian Ocean in 2004
There would be no fish in the tsunami waves
The tsunami didn't hear the cries of the victims
Until it created a tragedy

And I Never Dream
Dreaming is not for me
And I have my reasons
I'm not sure if they're good reasons

I never dream, I'll never dream, I never dream, I don't dream, I don't dream.